Bad Words?!

Fuck shit!!!!!!!!!!!
Bull shit!!!!!!!!!!!!
ANimal!!!
Yawa!!!
Yati!!!

All of the bad words I knew!! cannot even describe how I hate all of you!
I hate living with you, i hate breathing the same air as you, i hate walking the same earth as you fucking being. all you do is nag nag nag.. all you ever do is say all of your hardships acting like i fucking care.. acting like everything you did was for the fucking best.. BULL FUCKING SHIT!
What part of that improved our lives huh? Just because they woke you up to prepare for lunch then you start grumbling like what they asked was the moon or stars? WHAT THE HECK?!! I did more than that and haven't even eaten a proper meal and you are the one FUCKING grumbling?!!!!


TO HELL WITH YOU!!!!

Every fucking day, i struggle with myself, I struggle with the decision whether i really wanted to live or not while all of you always wake up thinking what ever you wanted for breakfast. Every second I battle with my mind to not strike that fucking knife on my flesh and hope that I could pass the day without slicing it. Every fucking day I am always holed up in my room thinking every negative thoughts about my life and ended up summarizing my whole life. Every fucking second I always grieve with how unfit I am to be here standing in this lonesome place I call home, trying to be perfect and strong with all the holes I already have. Every fucking day I loathe myself more for not being able to do anything but cry silently then telling them I'm okay. Every fucking time I endure these voiceless tears that keeps on flowing on my tired eyes which cannot rest.

And here you are, the one who is more loved than I, the one who is more happy than I. Grumbling your way in which everyone can hear. Good for you, now I am again the villain, now I am again the lazy sloth, I am as always the bad kid. Then after being scolded for a hundredth time, I crawl my way to my dark room, creeping on my bed, holding my heart in which have been broken to shards, wishing that for once and for last, I may stake this poison deep in my remains and finally break free off this hurtful chains that binds me to which I am today and finally free my miserable ME.